Embracing the Wave

Tar-Míriel was the fairest woman of her time, and one of the Faithful, but was forced by Ar-Pharazon to become his wife. Tragically, her life ended at the drowning of Numenor, work of the same one she hated so. This chronicles what may have been her last thoughts.

The sky darkens. The very sun seems veiled in shadow. I stand outside the accursed palace of Pharazon, but it seems dark, not only to my heart, as it once was, but to my eyes. My ears hear people screaming, my eyes look to the west, and all I see is the dark line, sweeping, covering all, as a shadow that floods the earth.

But I know that it is no shadow. 

It is a wave, rising from the sea like some dread form, climbing slowly but surely over Numenor. The land that we have lived in for so long, that we love, is doomed. The wrath of the Valar is come.

Amid the wreckage, a sudden instinct comes to me, and heedless of all I gird up my dress and run for sacred Meneltarma, hallowed to Eru, for there, I believe, is sanctuary, a refuge from destruction. But even as I climb up the Meneltarma, I know that it will be no use. Nowhere shall the wrath of the Valar not reach. They are Eru's regents on earth; his power is in them. I stand tall, and look one last time at Numenor the beloved, taking in every detail. I look at the doomed people, and tears spring to my eyes. But suddenly, I see ships, sailing out from Numenor, towards Middle-Earth. The wind flourished the standard, and I know it is Elendil with his people. I smile, and suddenly feel stronger. Elendil will survive, and with him some remainder of the Edain. May Uinen of the seas guide you and guard you, I cry in thought, May the Valar be always with you, and may the fate that has befallen Numenor never befall you. 

And then I turned, laughing and crying at once like one who has gone mad, and a part of me remarked ironically that when old nurses tell this tale to children, they would probably not comment on this. All the same, I must be brave. I will not let death take me as some cringing prisoner, unwilling, forcefully. If death by water be my fate, than so be it. The wave is coming, rising ever higher. I stand still. The wave envelopes me, calling my name. I reach out my arms to embrace it, and breathe it deep into myself. As a cool touch it seems to me, and I let the world slowly fade around me. I am no longer Ar-Zimraphael, his hated queen. Once more I will be Míriel, as I was before Pharazon cast his shadow over me. And I slip into darkness, trusting that beyond darkness will be light.